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This song is a mess but still so am I

from INDIGO by Declan Berdella

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Track 10 from debut album.

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10. This song is a mess but still so am I.

This night is too cold and my own is a prison, I am being erased, slammed against the floor I make no noise
Do you find me attractive? will you make love to me? will you remember my birthdays? Will you miss me when I´m gone?
Will you love no one else but me? Will you be with me forever? What´s forever mean to you?
I sit alone at parties, pretend to be comfortable, hold a drink throughout the night.
You´re only lonely if you have a lot to say and no one wants to hear it.
Do not make fun of my dirty broken rotten disgusting little heart.
Is it love not wanting to die alone?
A post-morten kiss, a post-morten fuck.

what it really means is like, two times the pain, it´s all bottled inside but you can´t get it out, and they, they just get out
but only in dreams, at night, when you´re alone, it´s like having these private ghosts that never go away, they haunt you in your dreams
and no matter what you do or where you go, they´re always with you and you can´t get away, it´s like you´re not really living
like not being awake, it hurts, it, it makes you crazy, it makes you crazy ´cause you don´t know what to do and it´s all wrong.

Loneliness, solitude, isolation
Loneliness, solitude, isolation.

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from INDIGO, released November 30, 2012
Lyrics and Music by Declan B. Ramírez.

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Declan Berdella Mexico City, Mexico

Guitarrista de las bandas “A Shelter In The Desert” “Fake Designers” “Expedición a las Estrellas” y su proyecto solista.
Compositor en la agencia de producción de música para visuales “Derk Music”.

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